Well, it's the third day after that last entry. I just couldn't bring myself to write. I guess I should have tried a bit harder but I just couldn't get my thoughts untangled enough.

I did try talking to C.M. about how I was feeling after I wrote that Monday. I also tried to explain how hurt I felt because of recent developments around here. Suddenly there is a huge cleaning kick on because some appraiser is supposed to come by to look a the house. I have been trying seemingly forever to get some help with this place and suddenly, because some stranger is coming by - it's getting done. His response was only, "Well, I'm sorry." I suppose I should be happy or at least glad that it's happening...but I'm not. I feel like I've been pushed to the back burner...or the back 40, I'm not sure which.

Otherwise, my feelings on this subject are torn - on the one hand, I am glad that the house is finally getting some of the attention that it needs but on the other I greatly resent how it is getting done. I resent him coming in here after so long and just going through all the stuff...even when it's his but in 'my' space. He gets on his 'I can do all and everything and will' kick and just does whatever he feels needs to be done but he doesn't bother to ask me what my thoughts are...and then gets mad at me because I'm not happy with the results.

From the battlefront: today has been a busy day, though. I spent about two hours cleaning out the old caulk from the hole that was in the back window where the pane fell out way back whenever. I also put in the plexiglass replacement...and accidently knocked it back out again when I went to clean the caulk off the back of the pane. You can bet that I felt really silly. Still, it feels good to finally have it fixed and not having a constant stream of cold air coming in. Lilith, however, isn't so thrilled with this new development - she figured out last summer that she could come into the house this way and has been trying to get around the temporary measures I put up ever since. I've also spent the last 4 hours working on cleaning and it's nowhere near being done.

I finally got some photos of fair weather cumulous clouds today - one of a cloud in the process of breaking up. I've got to work more on the website so I can get it up somewhere...I can't decide whether to go with cybercities; crosswinds or again with geocities...