Oh boy - it's been a busy several days...weeks...whatever it's been since I last wrote. The truck has been in and out of shops - nothing wrong, just to check up on things and change out filters, fluids and the like. This morning was the day that the brake pads were changed.

The Mazda dealership told me that the brakes were fine except for the pads and wanted to charge $300 but Midas tried to tell me that everything was shot and that I needed a new everything...or that it could be fixed to 'get me through' until next time. Either way, it would be over $600, $700 if it was 'done right'. They also bad mouthed the dealership, saying that they were only out for the fast buck and probably didn't even check the brakes...so I ended up taking it up to the Muffler Shop in Gallatin where they told me that there was definitely nothing wrong and fixed it for $234.

Anyway...

I met with L. the other day for supper and to play 'catch up' with her as well - we ended up talking about alot of things, including this relationship I'm in. Needless to say, she echoed nearly everything that I've been thinking for the last few months. The jist of what she had to say was that C.M. and I had been hurting each other for a long time and it's time that some healing came about. She's all for me just up and leaving...but I don't think I'm ready for that. I agree that some healing does need to happen and perhaps growth would come about if we were apart for a while...I don't know, I'll think about it.

Perhaps what I did today will speed that process along. It's not a big deal, in my mind anyway, but C.M. has already said that he would 'divorce' me (as if! How dare he try to change the nature of this relationship!) if I did it - I finally bought my rollerblades. I went up to Bowling Green after I picked up the truck. A lady with three kids was looking at them as well - she asked me if I was buying them for my kids too. That question really made me cringe. I can't stand the idea of having kids.

I can't wait to try them out!

Well, I guess that's it for catch up. I've got to do some research for a paper that I somehow got assigned...lol. Some people at the 'Dispelling the Myth' website asked if I would do an article on color and its meaning. (Can you say, "Synchronicity??") I'm debating on how I want to write the thing - do I just write it 'straight' from a pagan point of view or do I add stuff that I've learned on this very subject at SHA? I'll probably end up being in the middle and doing a bit of both at times. In any case, it's got to be done in a week - I haven't had a chance to sit down and work on it yet. I've also got to redo the 7 chakra poster for E. and start on the 12 chakra ones...this has been an absolutely mundane week. I need a bit of excitement. Later.