Moon Phase = nearing halfWeather = cool and comfortable
Finally!		Last Movie = Torch Song TrilogyCurrent Books = The Bodacious Book of Succulence - SARK

July 1, 1998

Pass Me That Torch, Girls - It's My Turn to Sing

I got an evil piece of mail today - the announcement for my tenth year high school reunion. I was not happy.

I remember what it was like to go to what I ended up calling a 'mini - reunion'. It was a bridal shower with a bunch of girls - excuse me, women - that I never hung around much with in school. I felt so out of place. I mean, here I was - early twenties; single, not even interested in marriage or kids (and don't get me started on wondering why so many small-town Southern girls don't dream of more than leaving school, getting married and throwing a foal as soon as possible...), surrounded by women who talked about nothing but and feeling like a visitor from another universe because I had nothing in common with them whatsoever. I could not wait to leave.

Now this thing shows up on my doorstep, reminding me of the things I haven't done, of roads not taken.

Granted, in these last ten years, I've discovered things about myself that I never would have guessed then. Still...

I catch myself wondering if I'll go. Will those same silly attitudes be there to greet me? The attitudes that say, "Why aren't you married and have four kids by now?" The attitudes that say, "Why do you have to be so different? Why can't you just fit in?" and the oldie but very moldy "Have you accepted Jesus as your personal savior?"

Have you accepted AT&T as your personal long distance service?

I daydream about storming in; pentagram blazing as it hangs from my throat and doing the best damn Cartman imitation known to mankind. Telling them all to Wake &$%#@!*&%#$ Up! and do something more with their lives. I suppose I'll just keep Cartman to myself and do something with my own life instead.

My melancholy mood wasn't helped much by the tonight's video either - Torch Song Trilogy. A very good movie. I've been thinking more lately about romance - not that sickening stuff that Harlequin sells but the kind in this movie, especially the character Alan. (Never mind the fact that he was played by Matthew Broderick who is *fairly* easy on the eyes) Love is love and romance is romance in my book. The world needs more of it in whatever combination. I need more of it. The hell with the knight with the tarnished armor - I don't need someone to save and protect me. I just would like someone who will stand beside me and remind me that I'm wonderful.

Good Night, Wonderful.

Midi: Theme from "BraveHeart"
The Cookie Jar

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