Moon Phase =gibbousWeather = clear and finally coolingCurrent books = The Man In the Iron Mask - Alexandre Dumas
The Bodacious Book of Succulence - SARK

July 5, 1998

Well, kind of. lol. I decided to take a suggestion from Sark (in Succulent Wild Woman) and have a commitment ceremony to myself - to love; cherish, honor and never 'leave' me. This way, I can finally let go of the past and look to the future.

I've been looking for a ring for weeks now - I found it today in Lebanon. I went straight to it, despite being in a huge store and never had looked in the jewelry counters before. It's a somewhat small silver one with a carbochon of lapis lazuli. It's sitting in my salt bowl on my altar now, cleansing. (It wasn't too much in need of it but just in case...) I'm going to wear it on my pinky. I think I'll hold a small ritual in a nearby park where there is an unused amphitheater sitting right beside of a quiet stream. I've said my rosary there before - perhaps this time the squirrels won't try to upstage me.

I also found the soundtrack to one of my favorite Xena episodes - The Bitter Suite. I was hoping that it would have that song that stuck in my head forever after I saw it - the one that goes,
                                       Xena beware,
                                       Xena be warned,
                                       By closing your eyes you can see what's not there
                                       Xena be calm, open your eyes
                                       Lies may be truth and truth may be lies...
I don't know why that stuck - but stick it did. This soundtrack also has 'Joxer the Mighty' on it - my luck, that'll be the next one to stick.

If I didn't mention it before, the herb faery struck again. I took advantage of that sale again and bought soapwort and pytherium. The transformation of this land - and myself - continues. The soapwort is happily in the front yard with the golden marguerite and the pytherium is in the back with the valerian; rue, southernwood, sage and an oak seedling.

I think that ring materialized because of my journey last night - I was able to reclaim and own some (if not a great deal) of myself. It's another form of initiation. I'll post the ceremony when it's finished.

I'd better go get my stuff together - tomorrow's the first day of classes.

Good Night, Wonderful.

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