What is the deal between little girls and their daddies? And why is it so hard to deal with those daddies when the little girls grow up??

I've finally had enough with mine. He tells me all this ideas (insert: dreams) that he is going to do and asks me to help him. When I am ready to move on the idea and start working - he waffles. Suddenly it's not possible at the moment - there's not enough room; money, time, green M&M's (o.k...I made that last one up). If that doesn't work, he just doesn't call me for months at a time.

I'm tired of being strung out like this - on top of it, I'm not sure if this is what I really want at the moment. I know that at some point, having a horse facility (breeding, training, showing) is in the cards but I don't know if the time is now. I don't know if it's just the idea of actually doing something with my father or what. Still, I went ahead and made up a 1, 2, and 5 year plan for the farm:

YEAR ONE:

• Mend fences
• Investigate monetary flow of the farm and ways to improve
• Investigate alternate methods of rodent control (no hazardous chemicals, killing traps)
• Update training or completely retrain if needed (applies to horses and humans)
• Clean out stalls and barn in general (clean out all potential hazards for horses - scrap metal, sharp objects, nails, etc.)
• Set up foaling stall
• Investigate potential sources of bedding straw - including possibility of growing own supply.
• Set up compost bin using refuse from cleaning the stalls and barn.
• rodent proof grain bin
• set up training and riding rings
• investigate available studs and bloodlines - decide which will improve the farm's bloodlines
• Begin the horses on a health improvement plan - including all tests, including coggins; shots, dietary plan and exercise
• Investigate organic means for growing grain for horses and food for humans.
• Clean barn and lot as well as mend fences here at home for use as a weaning lot.

YEAR TWO:

• Continuing and improving equine health plan - step up if needed
• Improve monetary flow
• Continuing to improve training methods - preferrably using Monty Robert's techniques
• Incorporate alternate methods of rodent control
• Begin using compost as organic fertilizer for grain
• Breed one mare to chosen stud
• Begin to incorporate methods of organic farming - phase in over next few years
• investigate feasibility of showing as a method of visibilty of the quality of the horses being bred

YEAR FIVE:

• Organic farming fully practiced
• Brood mare herd of 7 (conservative figure)
• fledgling training facility - foals trained to halter; lead, lunge line and saddle with all ground work involved.
• 2nd or 3rd crop of foals sold at profit
• Continuing to improve bloodlines
• Gaining attention for quality of horses through the show circuit
• 1 stallion in-house for breeding purposes - also adding to monetary flow through stud fees.

That should give him enough to balk at. I figure that the organic stuff and the alternative methods of rodent control alone should be enough excuse to gripe. Like I said - I'm tired of being strung along. It's time to draw the line and move on. It's to the point where I just want to tell him that he needs to f*** off and get a life.

Hehehehe - it's kind of funny. I think I should call this phase of my life 'Living though Shock Therapy'...and I get to do all the shocking!! Most everyone seems to think I'm a silly bit of fluff...boy are they wrong!!!! LOL!