Sept. 26, 1999

RUBY MOUNTAINS

I am part of this range of waving grass,
Part of the evening breeze, the gentle rains that pass.
I am the horse or range cow that moves out there so free.
Deep down within, they seem a part of me.

I am the snows on the mountain that cause the stream to flow,
Spreading out on the valley, urging grass to grow.
The meadow in the valley, the leaves and branches of a tree,
They are more than a thing of beauty. They are a part of me.

I am the buttercups blooming in the springtime,
The call of the blue grouse on the hill.
The peace and quiet of a summer night
When all the world is still.

I am the sparkling stars on a winter night,
Or a crisp cold morning sun.
I am the gurgling protesting stream,
Beneath the winter ice shall run.

The coyote that howls in the evening or the hoot owl in the wood,
I sense them stir within my soul. Deep down it feels so good.
With this all a part of me, I can never be alone,
I am the richest man on earth, for all this I own.

When this body that you see is stilled,
Stand not by my grave and cry.
When a part of all these things,
I will be renewed and shall never die.

But come our in the fresh spring grass,
See the songbirds up in the tree,
Just relax, spend some time.
It is there I shall forever be.

- Jack Walther, Cowboy Poet

For her. 1998-1999.
Bast called her home.










WEIRDVILLE

Dammit. I am so tired of Azrael's seemingly constant visits. I'm especially tired of feeling like I'm His envoy. I lost my girl last night. I thought she was on the road to getting better - she had what I thought was a sniffle and nothing bad enough for the vet...she took a very bad turn for the worse after I got home (near midnight) and was suddenly gone. All I could do was slip into that shamanic 'zone' and try to help ease the transition. I hate my job sometimes.

Why do I find myself helping the dead so much?


On a lighter note - I finally finished the miniature rocking horse for Momma's birthday tomorrow. It took me three days, but it's finally done. I found it at Wally World for about three bucks. I didn't like the way they had the tail or mane so I did what I like to do so well - I completely redesigned it. I repositioned the tail; stained the horse to a reddish brown - 'blood bay' I believe it's called - and the rocker a rich, deep brown. I painted the saddle deep prussian blue with alizarin crimson trim and finished the whole thing off with gold yarn for the tail and a big mop of a mane. Oh yeah - I also braided the reins. It looks pretty damn good, if you ask me.

I had another interesting dream last night. It didn't have Thomas Gibson in it, thank whoever responsible. This time, I found myself trying to magically protect myself and two others from a HUGE; green, 3 - headed hydra. It was pretty cool. O.k., O.k, I'll admit that one of the people was Keanu Reeves...but hey, he's eye candy. So what if he graduated from the Shatner School of Acting?

I kind of miss the Lovecraftian dreams though - however twisted it is, they were fun! Perhaps that's why I don't have them anymore...I had too much fun! All those strange critters and caverns and such...oh well. My favorite one was the one where I and several other people were ensconced in this trailer (couldn't I have come up with something more substantial...and less hick???) because there was someone outside that we knew to be dead. For whatever reason, this guy with us went outside and also bit the dust. You guessed it - he didn't stay dead for long. As we were running from this, a huge wind began blowing through the place. It was caused by a cavern that had opened up in one room. The cavern was sucking everything it could into it.

Are dreams cool or what??


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