Tonight was certainly an interesting night. I went to the festivities tonight at my grandmother's house and spent a good deal of the night crying. Sheesh. I'm getting tired of every time I go around my dad, the waterworks start.

I'm still sorting out all the emotions that came to the surface, almost as soon as I got there. On the surface is a very intense longing for the woods. There are nearly ninety acres here and a good deal of it is forested. I haven't felt as energized and at home since I walked the woods that I practically grew up in. These trees tonight called out to me - I don't know, it's hard to describe except to say that it is almost as if they need me as much as I need them.

It is hard to describe how it is for me but I'll try. Imagine that you are in a room and someone you love walks in. You don't see them but you may hear the way they walk or smell their perfume. Perhaps you don't even get that much but you know that they are there. You just know.

That's roughly how it is for me in the woods. Trees don't have the same kind of 'personality' as humans but they are each as distinct from each other as I am from you.