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Moon Phase = heading toward new | Weather = Clear, cold and frost | Current reading = The Artist's Way - Julia Cameron. week 5
Initiations, Human and Solar- Alice A. Bailey
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Quote:"We have been raised to fear the yes within ourselves, out deepest cravings."
-Audre Lorde
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December 17, 1998
News story: A church in Maryville TN. (just outside of Smokey Mountain National Park) has been getting complaints about their nativity scene. The manger scene itself isn't the problem - it's the simulated star of Bethlehem floating 200 feet in the air above it. The church has been using a weather balloon with a light inside and people have been calling local law enforcement from miles around, thinking it was a UFO and many are disappointed to find that it isn't.
I love stories like this.
Today has been kind of quiet - in a way, it was a welcome change after the rest of the week had been hectic but also I've been restless. Then again - that is pretty much par for the course, lately.
I 'attended' the chat that Z. gave last night on her walk on a Dark Path. It was very interesting! As I said before, it was not 'evil' but rather it turned out that it is very close to what E. teaches in a way - Z. called it a very selfish path for in order to understand anyone else, You must be ruthlessly honest with yourself and know, understand, and accept everything about yourself. Pretty what E. has been saying all long - just another way of perceiving it.
She also had a guided meditation to see what our power bases looked like. We were to visualize going into our minds and seeing a long hallway. There are doors along this hallway - each having a sign over them: "Friends", "Math", "English", etc. We were to keep walking til we got to the end of the hallway where there is yet another door. The sign over this door says, "Spirit". We walked into a room and noticed that the room was divided into three parts: A very bright, brilliant light; total darkness and a blend of both. We were to find a ball and walk to it. Once we found it, we were to play with it and study it. Notice everything about it.
My ball was huge - about four or five feet in diameter where most of everyone else's was softball to bowling ball size. It was also very ethereal, yet very dense. There was no weight to but the feel of it was like the wind on your face. It was a very neat ball. I found it in the middle of the room - where the blend was. According to Z., my power base is very balanced. It confirmed a few things that I had been thinking of lately - mostly of where I stand right now. I am not on the 'light' side. I am not on the 'dark' side. I am both - the exact reason why I took the name Morningstar.
My book finally arrived today - Alice Bailey's Initiations, Human and Solar. I've only read through the introduction and first chapter but I've always started making comments and underlining in it. This is only the second book that both comments and underlining has been done - the other being The 21 Lessons of Merlin. (Gee, can't figure out why...lol) It's almost like I've read it before and I'm remembering...
One thing I read in it was concerning one of the initiations. It was talking about how at the initiation, 'the initiate becomes the five pointed star (recognize that??) and it descends on him, merges with him and he is seen at the very center'. This reminds me very much of the journey I had back in March where I walked into a ceremonial circle and instead of casting a circle, I light a fire in one of the open pits instead. I walk into the fire and kneel down as if I am willingly going to my death. Soon I rise up as the old, needless parts of me burn away and I stand with arms stretched out to my sides and feet spread apart. Lightning comes down and strikes me - traveling in such a way that it forms a pentagram with my body. I then raise my arms over my head as I rise out of the fire amd expand - eventually becoming a part of all creation.
I thought it was interesting...and on that note, I think I will end this entry for tonight. Goodnight Sweetie.
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