hmmm....at this rate, I'm barely going to meet that 5 entry per month quota.

It seems that nearly everyone has been hit by a wave of apathy or something as of late. S. on the Artist Grove list mentioned it yesterday - not really wanting to do anything, except try to make herself happy, and failing even at that. She mentioned that she doesn't feel especially spiritual either.

As much as I hate to say it, welcome to the club. That's exactly what I've been feeling for a while now.

I've been feeling kind of loose and adrift - I'm not quite sure where things are going. I'm not quite ready to jump whole hog into the stuff at the center but the ways of the wise aren't quite right either and haven't been for a while. Granted, there are quite a few things that I've learned in my classes that are quite useful - but I'm not quite convinced otherwise. I have some deep, abiding concerns about some of the ways that it is run...and of course, you don't want me to get started on that damn I-Net mall crap. (Can you say "blinded by the saleman's hypnotic dream of loads of money???" how about "Citysearch???") Ah, hell...I wasn't going to get into that...I have nothing against prosperity, but there is a big difference between real prosperity and induced dreams of it. It really bothers me that in the year that I've been there, alot has been said about publicity, promotion and producing income for the center...yet they don't sit down and work on what is unique about the place and promote the hell out of that. They go for either the wordy, intellectual angle that pretty much excludes most of Nashville or now I fear with this damn mall that they're going to get into the same generic crap that every other new age site/store/catalog has in one version or another. It pisses me off that such a great idea as that center is just barely keeping afloat like this. Geez, it's like making Man O' War pull a milk cart.

::::Stepping down from the soap box, dusting myself off and continuing on my way::::

On to infinitely better things: My ear is finally better! After two days of it feeling as if there was an entire bale of cotton in there and not hearing much of anything on that side, it popped while I was in the shower and suddenly...I could hear!!! There's nothing like getting your hearing back to brighten your mood. It was kind of embarrassing when we went out to eat Sunday night - C.M. would say something and I'd have to say, "Huh??" It was awful. It was like everyone's voices just melded together into one constant rumbling mumble. Tomorrow we're supposed to go looking at trucks - I hope we get something. I'm way past due for a road trip. We're going by to see if that little silver Mitsubishi is still there and to drive it. We'll see how it goes. Figuratively and literally.