Boy, this has been a hell of a week, hasn't it? Not only has an unbelievable act of...well, terrorism been committed in Littleton, Colorado but there was also a bad helicopter crash at Fort Campbell.

The news about the school in Colorado has been getting more and more gruesome in these past few days. Last I heard, there were at least 30 bombs found throughout the school - including one 20 pound propane one in the cafeteria.

There is nothing, IMHO, that anyone could have said; done or insinuated to those two boys that justified what they did. One of the first things I learned as a witch was not the "If it harm none.." bit but of justification - protect yourself and act only if it is warranted. Someone insults you? Tough. Get over it and go on. Some tries to physically or psychically harm you? Then you can act to send that energy right back to where it came. What those two did in that school was way out of bounds. It was just stupid, plain and simple.

What's also stupid is how the media is trying to drag the Goth community into this mess. Two idiots wear trench coats and listen to Marilyn Manson and suddenly an entire culture is to blame. Someone even suggested that trench coats be banned - as if that would solve any- and everything. Pleeeeezzzeeee.

Speaking of school - it would seem that a dilemma has come up with the classes I'm taking. They just aren't living up to expectations. I've been talking to others who are also taking classes and they feel the same thing - that we were invited to join this group and infuse it with fresh energy ('blood'?) and when we did exactly that, we were rebuffed rather soundly. It has also gotten to the point where we all feel that we aren't learning anything in class - we're just sitting around chatting about whatever comes up. So, we've made a decision (although we haven't announced this yet) - we're taking the summer off. See what happens. Perhaps take a workshop or two.

There is a certain amount of guilt involved with this decision, although I'm fairly sure it's through no fault of my own. I wanted this to work out. I've discovered, though, that many a time when someone has a problem with the school, that person is made to feel that it is entirely their problem within their own psyche. The school doesn't 'need' fixing. If someone leaves then 'it got too tough for them' or there is some part of their personality that wasn't ready for the school.

I've just got two major obligations that I have to take care of - the informational website and E.'s posters (I still haven't finished those damn things!!!) and then I'll be done.