Well, here it is - several days after the last entry. I think that there may actually be something wrong - I feel as if I have absolutely nothing to say, least of all anything intelligent; my artwork has really suffered lately as well. I've sat down several times and just ended up staring at the paper or into space. It actually feels as if there is nothing in my soul to put down on paper. It's all used up. When I actually try to put something down on paper - it's as if there is no connection between my mind and the rest of me. My mind thinks it, but the rest doesn't hear...

Like I said - I think something's wrong.

Today has been...well, interesting. For a good deal of the day, I have felt like crying but I couldn't. There really isn't any reason for it, I don't think.

This isn't exactly a new thing, though. I remember this exact same feeling from years ago - only then I thought that it was nothing more than lonliness. Now I wonder.

I remember having other emotions than just sadness and emptiness....now if I can just get them back...

Alright...looks like it's time to do some research...this is not how life is supposed to be.