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August 13, 1998

The sun illuminates the mist as it undulates across the fields - making it appear as if it were alive, gloriously alive. One can imagine its pearly breadth conceals many things - elves, dragons...even doorways to hidden worlds. Perhaps it's the Veil itself.


No dreams yet - I haven't been to bed. 7:31 A.M.

I re-read yesterday's entry and it sounds so utterly unlike me. It's true though. A lot has happened. I've given up too much - I sound like I've given myself up in the process. Well, only one thing to do when there isn't a self to work with - build another one. This time, I want the one with power everything.

It's also time for me to take a sabbat-ical from the world of Wicca. I've purposely kept alot of 'witchy' stuff off this version of the webpage because I was sick of my page just repeating what was said on all the other pages. Repetition is the forerunner of orthodoxy...just imagine it: couple more thousand years and Paganism will be the State religion again and the next version of the Pagans will be throwing the next Christians to the lions. (Where did that come from??????)

Part of the decision to take a break from the world of Wicca comes from the classes I've been taking. True, they've been validating the teachings so far but they've also taught me so much more. I want to experience the worlds without limits and even a religion as expansive as Wicca has them.

Next addition to the Declaration: steal the motto from Outback - "No Rules, Just Right." (Also tape the next to last Declaration to my forehead, facing me so that it is forever in my face.)

I finally got to watch Lolita. Powerful movie - for all the wrong reasons. I can see why some people got upset about the subject matter - but they should watch it before condemning it. My opinion, of course.

I'm going to go lie down, at least. Maybe all these guards and walls will still be down when I come back.

Later -

I've been thinking about my decision to step away from Wicca. I'm going to keep some of the rituals and workings but on a whole, I just want to explore again. No labels, no restrictions - just the open road of the Path. I also want to examine the idea of an all-encompassing, non- and all- gendered God of which everyone has a spark of inside.

I'm letting go of the framework that is solid and grounded so firmly. I want the framework of my being to be free and flexible so that my spark from, and of, God can breathe.

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