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August 25, 1998
Last night's dream
Damn - all those cool graphics on the computer at the house and it decides to go on the blink again. It hasn't even come on since the power went off two days ago. We'll just have to settle with plain pages here for a while again.
I posted my formal 'break' from Witchcraft today. I wasn't prepared for how I would feel about it. It has been a part of my life for ten years now...but lately, as I've said before, it hasn't been enough. I've considered those I've met in the craft to be a kind of extended family but now, like in all families, it's time for this childe to leave and make her own way. I'm not giving up everything I've learned in the craft - just most of the religion aspects of it. I am keeping a few of my favorite devotional rituals but that is about it.
Now that I've taken that step away, I feel a sense of mourning for that path that is no longer mine. Yes, I made the right decision but that doesn't make the mourning much less. I am also a bit apprehensive - witchcraft provided a structure of sorts and now I've gone and tossed a good deal of that structure, never mind the fact that I am going into new, uncharted territory.
I really don't know where I am going from here. I've been thinking alot about Ghostchildren - those who have tribal heritage but either don't acknowledge it or know about it. Yeah, I have some Cherokee blood in me. I don't know what this has to do with my path - if anything.
When I chose to walk the path of the craft, I did it 1.) I was called to it 2.) I didn't think I had the right to walk the Native paths. At the time, alot of fuss was being made about people stealing the Native pathways and exploiting them. This was back in the '80's when all things Native were the latest fad. I didn't want to be one of them.
Everything is in such a state of...whatever right now. (Gee, I wonder why? lol) I am floating free on the open seas of life. I wonder where the currents will take me?
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