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October 12, 1999 Writing a bit early today...may not get a chance to later. Ooooooooh - it's a nice day out!! It's like a mixture of summer and fall - a bright sunny day with the colored leaves catching the light...
Keep walking, though there's no place to get to. Move within, but don't move the way fear makes Today, like every other day, we wake up empty and Don't open the door to the study and begin reading. Take down a musical
Let the beauty we love be what we do.
Lilith decided to visit two nights ago...she startled the bejesus out of me. I saw her walk from around the corner in the kitchen to the frige - I think she enjoyed my reaction. |
I'm still thinking about what I was offered the other night.
I feel like all the little spiritual sidetrips that seemed so off-track at the time are finally making some kind of sense. The classes on sound, color and light. The drumming circles. Wandering around in the woods, searching for answers.
Not that they were bad to experience at the time - far from it. I enjoyed them immensely. I just couldn't figure out why I was there many a time.
I'm trying not to be such a drama queen about it but it feels so much like what I've been waiting for - that all the waiting and searching was simply a big lesson in patience before the teacher showed up. No wonder I was going insane...
I don't do too well in the patience department sometimes.
I know that I am being quite obtuse in telling what this opportunity is - but I when to talk and when not in these matters. This is a 'not'...
Geez - I feel like I'm considering the priesthood...perhaps in some form, I am. The only real requirement is that I am absolutely; positively 100% 'Light'. No sitting on the fence. No dabbling with the Darkness.
I can do that. No problem there, despite the seemingly heavy burdens it can bring.
Oh - who am I kidding? I've known what my anwer was going to be all long. I've known all long that I was going to accept the offer - I've just been trying to find the loopholes in it. I haven't found any.
Let the training begin!
