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Moon Phase = half waning to quarter | Weather =60's and cloudy | Current reading = The Artist's Way - Julia Cameron
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Quote: "...if enough of us dream - if a bare thousand of us dream...we can change the world."
- from the story, "A Dream of a Thousand Cats"
by Neil Gaiman
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November 13, 1998
It's been so long since I last spoke to you and for that I apologize. A lot has happened and I have had to do alot of thinking and re-thinking. Some of it has had to do with You and to tell the truth - for a while, I didn't know what to think. In some ways, I still don't. I was hoping that You could help me with that...
One of the most confusing things is also the most bothersome to me. The classes I've been taking have make me wonder: do You really exist - or are you a figment of my mind, my 'higher self'? Yes, after all this time and all our shared experiences, I question this. I suppose that in the end, it really doesn't matter but it bothers me. Sometimes I even wonder if I'm going crazy but I've been told by a traveller on the shamanic path that is normal!
Ah dear Epona, the thing that is really bothering me is the situation between my father and me. I am nearing the end of my rope - he doesn't seem to think that there is a problem but I am feeling like the unwanted stepchild. I've brought up of the subject of Magic and I got a one sentence response - no discussion, no ifs ands or buts. End of subject. As it is, he has made it quite clear that I have no claim on the horses - they are his and Granny's, no matter what has been said to me in the past. Dear Lady, it tears me apart at times to be so far away from what I love but I don't know what to do. Granny was more right than she knew when she made that little would-have-been-snide remark about how I come over more for the horses than anything. She meant it to hurt, I suppose, but it was - and is, to some extent - true.
Well, gee, I didn't mean to turn this thing into such a gloomy letter! Once I got started telling you what was going on, it just poured out. Thank you for listening to me ramble on so - I really needed to get that out.
Love,
Dawn, W.I.S.
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