Hello y'all...

I just feel the need to talk for a few minutes. I apologize in advance if I ramble incoherently. lol

Have you ever had an experience where there seems to be much more going on than appears on the surface and you don't realize it until later? I think I just had one. Just about 30 minutes ago (I think - I lost track of the time), there was a car wreck in front of my house. The driver (it looked like he was driving a jag ~ ouch!) swerved to miss a truck that was in his lane, went into the ditch and hit the culvert in my driveway. He ended up going over the driveway and landed several feet away in the ditch. I don't know exactly how badly he was hurt, other than a gash on the forehead and complaining of his back hurting. The truck never stopped.

Anyway, I was the one who called 911. It's the second wreck I've had to report in two weeks ~ the other one was outside of a nearby town and I came upon it. The neighbors tended to the guy in the car (neighbors who I was meeting for the first time, at that). I took a flashlight and a towel out in case it was needed. I can't even describe some of the feelings running through my head. First thing I thought was, "Are my cats alright? None of them were near, were they?" I was looking for feline bodies in the road ~ luckily, there were none. The man in the car seemed alright, other than the stuff that one usually goes through in that situation ~ pain, anger, and the rest.

So I come back into the house since the EMTs and firemen have everything under control. Here's the part I'm not sure I have words for. I walk back into the house and it is as if...well, it was as if I woke up. It's literally as if someone had just sarcastically said, "911...HellLO???!!! Time to wake up here!" It was as if I was truly seeing everything as it is in my life for the first time in a long time ~ and not sleepwalking, like I have been lately (But that's a whole 'nother issue...lol). Things that I've tried to pretend were fine ~ which really aren't but despite appearances are not without hope of being fixed, responsibilities I've let slip...the whole nine yards. Like I said, I'm not sure I can put this into words (or worlds, as I just typed) but it is as if I got an instant, deep look at myself and everything is as it should be ~ dust, dirt, seeds and all. It's not as bad as it looks ~ in fact, the dark winter of the soul is over and spring is on it's way, so to speak.

So...that's it. I had an epiphany. Was it adrenaline induced? I don't know. I don't think I'll look it in the mouth too much, either.