The mood at the moment is:
Neat website of the day:Where's George?
Damn ~ this is starting to look pretty good. It's beginning to be well worth the over 24 hours (not at all at once, thank god!) I've put in, fighting the code and trying to get it to do what I wanted ~ not what I told it.
I guess Julia Cameron was right after all ~ right when things come up is when one is reluctant to write. I certainly haven't wanted to, right when all these little niggling fears and doubts came up about myself and my abilities. The usual stuff, you know ~ I'm a thoroughly unoriginal hack who's destined to live a destitute, lonely life as the crazy old lady who lives with 3 million cats. I'm crazy to think that I can make my own way and be different from everyone else. There's no way I'll ever be able to make a living drawing pretty pictures.
Here's a big ol' raspberry for those thoughts: ppppppphhhhhhhhfffffffffttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!
Now let me wipe the spit off the monitor...
I have a rare treat this week ~ C.M. is off to Knoxville and I have the house to myself. I have to admit, it's a bit wierd since I spend a good deal of time moving around someone else's schedule ~ whether I realize it or not. This week, there's no stopping something early because so and so's going to be in or wondering whether the radio's too loud at 3 a.m.
The freedom is almost too heady ~ what the heck will I do?? LOL I've already caught myself trying to trap...myself (shades of Austin Powers there). I keep thinking of all the things that need to be done and what could be done and for some reason it feels as if it all needs to be done RIGHT NOW!!!!!! The drawings need to be done; the house needs to be cleaned, the tomatoes picked, the yard picked up and mowed, Ms. Helen's flowers need to be potted, Kitt needs attention, the other cats need attention...work needs to be sent out...I need to research where I can send my work for evaluation and potential jobs...I have to figure out just exactly it is I want to be when and if I grow up...
I think I'll follow my first inclination for the moment ~ just stop and do nothing but pet Kitt.
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