I am so tired of this bug. It has now officially been a week since I captured it. I wish that I could have just left it free to wander the halls of Financial Aid. Still, it's no where as bad it could have been. Let's not forget the entire month of January I spent hacking and wheezing in 1997. I couldn't even walk 20 feet without stopping in the middle to catch my breath.
Several things have been brought home during this spell (and I'm beginning to think that is exactly what it is. I'll explain that in just a bit.) All the things that I have been taught over the years and still had a few doubts about, such as the connections between thoughts and health and mind over matter.
Not only did I not follow my own regimen of taking echinacea at this time of year in order to boost my own defenses, I also left myself open by not taking care of myself while taking on an incredibly different schedule...and life. I barely stopped long enough to think, let alone to take stock of what was going on within. I was a swirling cauldron of doubt and misgivings, despite the fact that I was delirously happy to be back in a learning environment.
That is exactly why I created the opportunity to get sick (See? It was a spell. Will put into action.) It was a chance to back out since I was having some fairly serious second thoughts about why I was in school. I was woefully out of practice; couldn't remember what a simple thing like a thesis was and hell, I am (:::shudder::: 14 years) older than most people in my classes. It's a good thing that I'm not that much of a social animal or I'd really be miserable.
Tuesday was the roughest day so far. I woke up feeling as if I had been dunked into a swimming pool. Everything was soaked ~ me; the bed, the blankets. I was completely depleted and had the shaky legs of a newborn foal. I also had that familiar feeling having a pillow stuffed into my chest. (I originally said it was a brick but that's not entirely accurate. It wasn't a heavy feeling, just congested.) That night I decided to put a technique to the test that I had read about in Sylvia Browne's book, Adventures of a Psychic. The results: it worked. I still had the stuffy nose and a little congestion but the pillow was gone. I could breathe much easier the next day.
Sylvia Browne's Laboratory Technique (modified by me, since my use of it was impromptu.)
Visualize a rectangular room, in any size that feels comfortable. Make it truly your room ~ add plants; artwork, anything you want. Put in windows where you can look out over a water source: lake; ocean, river. Leave the wall farthest from you open. Visualize a table in the center of the room, large enough for you lie on. Visualize it in any way that you want, as long as you are comfortable with it.
In the far wall that has been left open, visualize a stained glass window in bright colors: blue; purple, gold and green.
Now walk through your self made 'lab'. The best time to do this is before falling asleep. Stand in front of your stained glass and feel the colors penetrating your body and lending their energies to you:
- Blue: tranquility for the soul
- Gold: heightens intellect and dignity
- Green: healing
- Purple: Spirituality
Walk to your table and prepare to lie down. The lab is your place for interacting with your ancestors and the Master Teachers. You probably will not see them but know that they're there and listening. Talk to them in a way that is comfortable (but respectful!! Don't go in saying, "Hey MoFo ~ fix this!") about the problem and ask their help in solving it. Any problem can be addressed in the lab but you really should concentrate on one physical problem at a time. You can always come back to your lab later ~ since you created it, it's yours. Once the problem has been addressed, you may even fall asleep. That's alright, the lab usually has that effect anyway.
Well, that's it for me tonight. I've got my first test in Drawing II tomorrow. I get to label the major bones in the human body: cranium; mandible, clavicle, scapula, humerus, radius, ulna, metacarpals, ribcage, spine, pelvis, femur, tibia, fibula, and metatarsals. I just may have it aced. Now I'm going back to the 'lab' to work on my stuffy head.
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